I do not know why you hate me so much. I feel like you dont give a shit about anyone but you and Amanda. One day you will know what it feels like to have your heart killed. Good luck in your life. I do love you so very much but I cant take the pain NO MORE.
You know your children needs you. They need a lot of time. Its not a part time job, it is a full time job for the rest of your life. Remember that. Joshua, I love you, please look at what your doing. Take a good look at your life. Are you happy?