July 28th I could of lost you. I know you hate me. I want you to know that I love you so much. If anything ever happened to you it would kill me. I know you do not believe me. I see you work so hard. Remember the hardest job you will ever have is raising your kids. It is 24/7 for a life time. They need you. It gets harder when they grow up. Don’t ever forget what is important.
As for me not raising you. Josh, I am so sorry you feel that way. You went with your dad in 1992 I went to pick you and Mike up in 1993. You fought with me and would not leave your dad. So I let you stay. You blame me for that, and I do not understand why. You were almost 13. I am sorry if you are hurt about that. There was not a day that went by that I did not worry about you. I remember the day you called me when you were locked in your room and that woman and was trying to hurt you. Do you know when I went to Guam I looked for her? If I have found her I would of kicked her ass. Also the time when your appendices burst. Boy I found your dad and yelled so hard and told him to take you to the hospital. He fought with me but I did not give up. We went there in 1996 you were almost 16. I went back to get us all back home. But it did not work out that way. We all stayed there until 1999. We all moved back here on Christmas day in 1999. The main reason we moved back here was because our children was not safe on that Island. Your dad finely seen it and believed me. Now we are here. Yes Josh life is hard. There will be times you just want to give up. Being rich is not whats important. Whats important is your family. Money can not give them love. Remember that. I love you Josh.