First of all I want you to know that I love you all so very much. I hope I am around when you go on your first date. Preparing for a date can be quite nerve-wracking, even for the most mature of individuals. Here are some guide lines to to help you:

1. MAKE SURE YOU KNOW HIM WELL ENOUGH TO GO ON A DATE WITH HIM

2. Make sure dad & mom like him. If they don’t something is wrong with him. Parents know.

3. Let them know where your going and what time you will be home. Parents, will tell you the time to be home….

4. Don’t be late coming home. Parents get REALLY REALLY worried. If you are going to be late ie flat tire CALL HOME, let them know.

5. Always know if for any reason you need a ride home, phone home. Your parents will pick you up. Know matter what.

6. Where something that is nice. Not to sexy. Sexy clothes give guys wrong ideas.

7. Make sure the place you go, you will enjoy too.

8. Holding hands are okay, only if you want too.

9. If he wants a kiss, only on the cheek. He will respect you more. If not, he is not worth going on a second date.

10. Last but not least, have fun…..

P/S Our family can add to this if they want.

Love, Grandma Auayan

Anaiah,

I hope you know that I love you with all my heart. Your mom does not want you to see me. I do not know why she is doing what she is doing. When your mom walked out on your dad, he tried to see you and she kept you away. He never stopped. Your dad fought hard in court to get you. But our courts most of the time sides with the mom. Even when, in your case it would of been better to be with your dad. I don’t think your mom knows how much she is hurting you. One day when you get older you will read this and understand. We do love you very much. I’ve only got to see you few times. I want to see you more. I wish your mom would grow up and STOP thinking about herself and money.
When your dad takes you back to your mom, it breaks his and my heart to see you beg your dad not to leave you with her. It tears my heart out. You told me once you wanted your mom dead. I could not believe that came from a three year old. I told you that was not nice thing to say and that your mom loves you. You told me she is mean and does not love you. Wow, I see you are so hurt as your mom is trying to keep your dad out of your life. That will never happen. I know when you get older you can live with your dad and she can not stop you. That is what your dad is waiting for. Anaiah, I love you and miss you so much. I hope you never forget that.

Grandma Auayan

You know life is hard. There is many things I want to say to you all. Be good, think of others, don’t lie, don’t steal, feed my birds, don’t cheat, always be happy, stop and smell the roses Life really really is shorter than you think. If someone truly loves you, they will not try to change who you are. However, if you think you need to do some changing to better yourself, start today.Change comes from within. You all know right from wrong. At least I hope you do. You know your dad needs help. Especially if I am not here. He hurts. I know he is hard to understand, but you know what, he is a good man. He does love you all. I know sometimes he does not act like it. He just hurts. Hurt that you guys do not help him. I guess you know which ones you are. He just wants respect. Always help one another. Be their for each of you. You know with out family, it will get harder. One day you will not have each other. Let me tell you, it is so hard to go on. I have lost, my grandpa, my dad, my two sister’s. loosing my sisters has been so hard. It is even hard to write about it. I miss them so much. It tears me up. I hope one day we will be together. I really do not know if there is a God. But to those of you who do not believe, you might be wrong and loose so much. I hope there is a God because it would be wonderful to be in Heaven with all the people I love. There is no more pain only happiness. What more can you ask for. To be in a place with all the people you love & have no pain and sickness. Open the bible and read it. There is so much good in it.

I feel like I have lost you all. Some times I feel like you do not care. You know what? It really really hurts. You will not understand it until your children get to be adults their selfs. Remember I LOVE YOU ALL. If I ever hurt you please forgive me. My last breath, remember I forgive you all for anything and everything. Don’t feel sad. Be happy and PLEASE take care of your children. They need you. Teach, protect and love them. They need that. They watch you and they learn a lot by watching. So do good.

Mom