You know life is hard. There is many things I want to say to you all. Be good, think of others, don’t lie, don’t steal, feed my birds, don’t cheat, always be happy, stop and smell the roses Life really really is shorter than you think. If someone truly loves you, they will not try to change who you are. However, if you think you need to do some changing to better yourself, start today.Change comes from within. You all know right from wrong. At least I hope you do. You know your dad needs help. Especially if I am not here. He hurts. I know he is hard to understand, but you know what, he is a good man. He does love you all. I know sometimes he does not act like it. He just hurts. Hurt that you guys do not help him. I guess you know which ones you are. He just wants respect. Always help one another. Be their for each of you. You know with out family, it will get harder. One day you will not have each other. Let me tell you, it is so hard to go on. I have lost, my grandpa, my dad, my two sister’s. loosing my sisters has been so hard. It is even hard to write about it. I miss them so much. It tears me up. I hope one day we will be together. I really do not know if there is a God. But to those of you who do not believe, you might be wrong and loose so much. I hope there is a God because it would be wonderful to be in Heaven with all the people I love. There is no more pain only happiness. What more can you ask for. To be in a place with all the people you love & have no pain and sickness. Open the bible and read it. There is so much good in it.
I feel like I have lost you all. Some times I feel like you do not care. You know what? It really really hurts. You will not understand it until your children get to be adults their selfs. Remember I LOVE YOU ALL. If I ever hurt you please forgive me. My last breath, remember I forgive you all for anything and everything. Don’t feel sad. Be happy and PLEASE take care of your children. They need you. Teach, protect and love them. They need that. They watch you and they learn a lot by watching. So do good.