Happy 43rd Birthday to my sister. I do not know why she can not even take my calls? I guess that is what happens when you grow up and everyone goes on with their life. They forget about their siblings and their parents. Why has that not happened to me? I worry so much about everyone and feel like I am going to loose them all. It is driving me insane. I do love you Brenda.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BRENDA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

Why is life so hard? Way to much for me to handle. People act like they do not care. It really hurts me. Way to much fighting, it brings bad memories back for me and it is tearing me up. I want to take the kids and run. I know what they are feeing and it is hurting me so bad. I need to do something about it too. It can not go on like this anymore. Something has got to change. It has gotten way out of hand. What do I do? Where do I go?

Also soooooooo worried about Mandy. I do not know what is wrong with her. She will not even go to see a doctor. This is also getting to me. Why does she not see what she is doing to me? Why? Does she not care? She even stops breathing. Her heart slows way down and her BP is so low. She is hurting in the back, chest, stomach and she said shehas a hard time breathing. Her ears ring and a couple of times she could not hear. She says her body gets really hot and it starts to tingle all over and then she passes out. What do I do? I can not force her to see a doctor. HELP? What can I do? I am so scared when she leaves the house, scared I will not see her again. I am scared to leave the house too. I feel like I am loosing my mind. WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?

First of all I want you to know that I love you all so very much. I hope I am around when you go on your first date. Preparing for a date can be quite nerve-wracking, even for the most mature of individuals. Here are some guide lines to to help you:

1. MAKE SURE YOU KNOW Her WELL ENOUGH TO GO ON A DATE WITH Her

2. Make sure dad & mom like her. If they don’t something is wrong with her. Parents know. ( right Mike & Joshua?)

3. Tell your dates parents what time you will bring her home. Don’t be late. Don’t forget to tell your parents too.

4. Don’t be late coming home. Parents get REALLY REALLY worried. If you are going to be late ie flat tire CALL both homes, let them know.

5. Always know if for any reason you need a ride home, phone home. Your parents will pick you up. Know matter what.

6. Where something that is nice.

7. Make sure the place you go, you will enjoy too.

8. Holding hands are okay, only if you want too. Open all doors for her. Pull the chair out for her. Forget womens lib. They do like that.

9. If she wants a kiss, only on the cheek. She will respect you more. If not, she is not worth going on a second date.

10. Last but not least, have fun…..

11. No girl/women are worth fighting for. Remember that.

P/S Our family can add to this if they want.

Love, Grandma Auayan